Monday, October 28, 2002
So I finally put together my Hallowe’en costume!
Nothing too creative, but what’re you gonna do? I took some older clothes that I’d brought, and don’t fit, and decided to put them to the cause. I tore up an old flannel shirt I had, tied it up at my midriff. I let out a pair of blue pants I had, spattered them so they looked like jeans when I cut them off. Not the most comfortable costume in the world, but I was a hillbilly!
Friday I went out to a party with some of Amy’s friends. Met some pretty cool people. It wasn’t the most exciting party in the world, but a few people had kids, and that tends to drag you down when it comes to partying late at night! Only a few people actually wore costumes, which was a little disappointing.
Saturday was Michelle’s party. It was pretty cool to go to! More people wore costumes, though not everyone. I met some good artists, and it’s always weird meeting someone whose work you’ve studied. They’re nothing like you’ve envisioned, and in some cases it’s quite disappointing. In other cases, suddenly their art has a whole new meaning!
I met one guy, Tyrell, who does some good work with landscapes. He was completely fascinated that I’d go to a party like that with my stomach just hanging out like that! I told him all about my views on weight, he seemed to be very interested in what I was saying. I don’t know if he’s into big chicks, or just weird people, but we talked a lot over the course of the night.
I also met Michelle’s boyfriend, Tim. He’s a cool guy, older than she is. He’s very different from her, but I can see how they enjoy having the differences. I thought he might look cute with a few extra pounds!
Nothing too creative, but what’re you gonna do? I took some older clothes that I’d brought, and don’t fit, and decided to put them to the cause. I tore up an old flannel shirt I had, tied it up at my midriff. I let out a pair of blue pants I had, spattered them so they looked like jeans when I cut them off. Not the most comfortable costume in the world, but I was a hillbilly!
Friday I went out to a party with some of Amy’s friends. Met some pretty cool people. It wasn’t the most exciting party in the world, but a few people had kids, and that tends to drag you down when it comes to partying late at night! Only a few people actually wore costumes, which was a little disappointing.
Saturday was Michelle’s party. It was pretty cool to go to! More people wore costumes, though not everyone. I met some good artists, and it’s always weird meeting someone whose work you’ve studied. They’re nothing like you’ve envisioned, and in some cases it’s quite disappointing. In other cases, suddenly their art has a whole new meaning!
I met one guy, Tyrell, who does some good work with landscapes. He was completely fascinated that I’d go to a party like that with my stomach just hanging out like that! I told him all about my views on weight, he seemed to be very interested in what I was saying. I don’t know if he’s into big chicks, or just weird people, but we talked a lot over the course of the night.
I also met Michelle’s boyfriend, Tim. He’s a cool guy, older than she is. He’s very different from her, but I can see how they enjoy having the differences. I thought he might look cute with a few extra pounds!
Friday, October 25, 2002
It’s party time!
I’m going to a Hallowe’en party tonight with Amy and some of her friends. Tomorrow night Michelle is holding one, so I’ll be going to that too. Most of our artists are going to be there, so I’ll get to meet some more of them!
One problem, I haven’t had a chance to put together a Hallowe’en costume this year! Last year I didn’t get dressed up, the year before I dressed as a witch, but there’s no way that costume’d fit me now! I wonder if I even brought it to London?
It’ll be cool though, to meet more people here in London, and it’s been a while since I went to a party like this. And a long time since I went to a party without Ian!
I’ll figure something out. Maybe a belly dancer?
Yeah.
I’m going to a Hallowe’en party tonight with Amy and some of her friends. Tomorrow night Michelle is holding one, so I’ll be going to that too. Most of our artists are going to be there, so I’ll get to meet some more of them!
One problem, I haven’t had a chance to put together a Hallowe’en costume this year! Last year I didn’t get dressed up, the year before I dressed as a witch, but there’s no way that costume’d fit me now! I wonder if I even brought it to London?
It’ll be cool though, to meet more people here in London, and it’s been a while since I went to a party like this. And a long time since I went to a party without Ian!
I’ll figure something out. Maybe a belly dancer?
Yeah.
Wednesday, October 23, 2002
Ian informs me that he’s upto 432 pounds!
Oh, by the way, haven’t written here for a while.
Why? I moved to London! I started working at the gallery, it’s going great! Not the best art in the world, but it’s modern, it’s a lot of local artists, so it’s pretty cool.
London is a nice city. Nothing like Toronto, but more fun than Newmarket! (But unlike Newmarket, we can’t dip into Toronto for fun.) The roads are nice, there’s no traffic. Everything seems cleaner. The crowds are smaller. I wouldn’t say people are more polite, but they aren’t as antagonistic, which seems more polite.
I’m living with my friend Amy. We were pretty good friends in highschool, she was on the volleyball team with me, and we were in some of the same art and English classes together, so that’s pretty cool. Like me, she was thin in high school. Like me, she’s gained some weight. Unlike me, she’s under 200 pounds. She really was surprised to see that I’d gained weight. She was really surprised that I was dating a guy like Ian. In highschool I never would have dated a fat guy!
She remembers the last time I saw her, she came to Toronto when Amanda was born. She felt huge then, 150 pounds or so. I really bugged her about it because, Jeri not withstanding, she was the fattest of us! She was worried that I’d bug her more now that she’s closer to 180, but once she saw me… well, it would be very insincere of me to mock her weight gain. I guess she’s a victim of the old yo-yo diet, drop 20, gain thirty, that sort of thing.
Ian came up to visit on the weekend. He brought some stuff I’d forgotten, or decided I needed. Mostly kitchen stuff, Amy isn’t the culinary queen that I am, so I’m going to have to get the place sorted out. He also set up our computers so Amy and I can share the internet. Ian’s so smart with computers!
We showed Amy ICQ, and I showed her this diary. She’d never chatted online before, and never read any ‘blogs’. I think she rather enjoyed both. To those of you she chatted with, you have set an excellent example of how people who chat online are charming and fun, not creeps and losers. Well done! ((HUG))
One thing I did was cook a huuuuuuge breakfast for Ian. I’ve made bigger, but the point was there. Amy had no idea how much Ian could eat, and I love showing him off. He is still my living work of art. I miss feeding him. I miss other things about him, but we can talk on the phone, I can cuddle with pillows. But I can’t feed him!
I think he’s going to gain weight without me. I know he was slowing down, he is getting near his capacity, but now he’s eating more junk than I ever served, but still in large amounts. I think he’ll outweigh me by the end of the year.
That’s another thing I miss. His big ass scale! I want to know if I’m gaining or losing weight here! I think I’m losing, but how would I know? I’ve been pretty light on the cooking duties, trying to gauge what Amy likes and will eat. I don’t know when I’ll be back in Toronto next, but you can bet your last twinkie that I’ll be on that scale!
I’ll probably go back in early November, so I can see Amanda. I miss her more than I miss Ian. Of course, I got to see Ian on the weekend, so that’s one reason why. Back when I first moved out from Jeri’s I went a while without seeing Amanda, but this is the longest I’ve gone with out seeing her in over a year. She’ll be so different when I see her again. London has a decent children’s museum I’ve heard, I’ll have to take her there sometime soon I think.
Well, that’s about it for now.
More later, I promise!
Oh, by the way, haven’t written here for a while.
Why? I moved to London! I started working at the gallery, it’s going great! Not the best art in the world, but it’s modern, it’s a lot of local artists, so it’s pretty cool.
London is a nice city. Nothing like Toronto, but more fun than Newmarket! (But unlike Newmarket, we can’t dip into Toronto for fun.) The roads are nice, there’s no traffic. Everything seems cleaner. The crowds are smaller. I wouldn’t say people are more polite, but they aren’t as antagonistic, which seems more polite.
I’m living with my friend Amy. We were pretty good friends in highschool, she was on the volleyball team with me, and we were in some of the same art and English classes together, so that’s pretty cool. Like me, she was thin in high school. Like me, she’s gained some weight. Unlike me, she’s under 200 pounds. She really was surprised to see that I’d gained weight. She was really surprised that I was dating a guy like Ian. In highschool I never would have dated a fat guy!
She remembers the last time I saw her, she came to Toronto when Amanda was born. She felt huge then, 150 pounds or so. I really bugged her about it because, Jeri not withstanding, she was the fattest of us! She was worried that I’d bug her more now that she’s closer to 180, but once she saw me… well, it would be very insincere of me to mock her weight gain. I guess she’s a victim of the old yo-yo diet, drop 20, gain thirty, that sort of thing.
Ian came up to visit on the weekend. He brought some stuff I’d forgotten, or decided I needed. Mostly kitchen stuff, Amy isn’t the culinary queen that I am, so I’m going to have to get the place sorted out. He also set up our computers so Amy and I can share the internet. Ian’s so smart with computers!
We showed Amy ICQ, and I showed her this diary. She’d never chatted online before, and never read any ‘blogs’. I think she rather enjoyed both. To those of you she chatted with, you have set an excellent example of how people who chat online are charming and fun, not creeps and losers. Well done! ((HUG))
One thing I did was cook a huuuuuuge breakfast for Ian. I’ve made bigger, but the point was there. Amy had no idea how much Ian could eat, and I love showing him off. He is still my living work of art. I miss feeding him. I miss other things about him, but we can talk on the phone, I can cuddle with pillows. But I can’t feed him!
I think he’s going to gain weight without me. I know he was slowing down, he is getting near his capacity, but now he’s eating more junk than I ever served, but still in large amounts. I think he’ll outweigh me by the end of the year.
That’s another thing I miss. His big ass scale! I want to know if I’m gaining or losing weight here! I think I’m losing, but how would I know? I’ve been pretty light on the cooking duties, trying to gauge what Amy likes and will eat. I don’t know when I’ll be back in Toronto next, but you can bet your last twinkie that I’ll be on that scale!
I’ll probably go back in early November, so I can see Amanda. I miss her more than I miss Ian. Of course, I got to see Ian on the weekend, so that’s one reason why. Back when I first moved out from Jeri’s I went a while without seeing Amanda, but this is the longest I’ve gone with out seeing her in over a year. She’ll be so different when I see her again. London has a decent children’s museum I’ve heard, I’ll have to take her there sometime soon I think.
Well, that’s about it for now.
More later, I promise!
Wednesday, October 09, 2002
And now we’re back to 450.
Not that I mind, Ian and I are enjoying our remaining time. I’m cooking a lot, we’re eating treats, we’re enjoying each other’s abundance of flesh. I love it! I’m going to miss it, so I’m getting as much as I can when I can.
I look back at when we moved in, how much smaller Ian was, how I was against him gaining weight, and then my realisation that I in fact did enjoy having ‘fat Ian’ around!
In some ways it will be nice to have a break from Ian. I love him very much, but I know that the staleness in our relationship is really dragging me down. I also know that I’ll lose weight without him around.
But I will miss cooking for him, watching him eat dinner, feeding him an ice cream sundae, massaging his stomach when he’s eaten too much. There’s something comforting about snuggling up with someone Ian’s size. Nothing can replace the feeling of our soft flesh pressing together. I’ll miss that too.
I don’t know if Ian will continue to gain without me. He can cook, he’s very good at it, but he hasn’t done a lot of it in a while, since I love it so much more than he does. I do know that I’ll be losing weight. It will be a bit of a surprise to see how we change in our time apart. I’m really looking forward to that. Nothing like a little time apart to build anticipation, to, as they say ‘make the heart grow fonder.
Today is probably my last official weigh in. Ian will keep the scale. I’m sure that while he’s in Toronto, and I come ‘home’ that I’ll still get to weigh in, but once he’s in Nashville, that’ll be it unless I go visit him.
Official:
Me: 450 pounds
Ian: 425 pounds
875, not bad, almost ½ a tonne.
Not that I mind, Ian and I are enjoying our remaining time. I’m cooking a lot, we’re eating treats, we’re enjoying each other’s abundance of flesh. I love it! I’m going to miss it, so I’m getting as much as I can when I can.
I look back at when we moved in, how much smaller Ian was, how I was against him gaining weight, and then my realisation that I in fact did enjoy having ‘fat Ian’ around!
In some ways it will be nice to have a break from Ian. I love him very much, but I know that the staleness in our relationship is really dragging me down. I also know that I’ll lose weight without him around.
But I will miss cooking for him, watching him eat dinner, feeding him an ice cream sundae, massaging his stomach when he’s eaten too much. There’s something comforting about snuggling up with someone Ian’s size. Nothing can replace the feeling of our soft flesh pressing together. I’ll miss that too.
I don’t know if Ian will continue to gain without me. He can cook, he’s very good at it, but he hasn’t done a lot of it in a while, since I love it so much more than he does. I do know that I’ll be losing weight. It will be a bit of a surprise to see how we change in our time apart. I’m really looking forward to that. Nothing like a little time apart to build anticipation, to, as they say ‘make the heart grow fonder.
Today is probably my last official weigh in. Ian will keep the scale. I’m sure that while he’s in Toronto, and I come ‘home’ that I’ll still get to weigh in, but once he’s in Nashville, that’ll be it unless I go visit him.
Official:
Me: 450 pounds
Ian: 425 pounds
875, not bad, almost ½ a tonne.
Tuesday, October 08, 2002
Ian’s back from Nashville.
He says he had a great time down there, and that he is looking forward to working down there. It’s just a matter of seeing how things sort themselves out. There’s several issues to be resolved, and I don’t understand one of them!
It’s less than a week before I move to London. I’m really excited about the new job, and getting to know Amy again! I’m sad to be leaving Ian and Jeri and Amanda though. I’ll visit a lot, especially since I’ll be moving my stuff to London a bit at a time, rather than all at once. I still have stuff in storage that I haven’t needed since moving in with Ian. Once I get a place in London I’ll get that.
In some ways, it’s kind of nice to be moving away from Ian for a bit. When I’m around him I just eat so much. Now I know how Jeri must’ve felt right before I moved in with Ian! I can’t wait to be in London so I can start dropping a few pounds.
Of course, until then, Ian are enjoying our time together how we know best… eating. Last night I made a huge fried rice dish. We also had chips and sundaes. HUGE sundaes. I love those. I’m going to miss eating with Ian, but I’m not going to miss the pounds.
He says he had a great time down there, and that he is looking forward to working down there. It’s just a matter of seeing how things sort themselves out. There’s several issues to be resolved, and I don’t understand one of them!
It’s less than a week before I move to London. I’m really excited about the new job, and getting to know Amy again! I’m sad to be leaving Ian and Jeri and Amanda though. I’ll visit a lot, especially since I’ll be moving my stuff to London a bit at a time, rather than all at once. I still have stuff in storage that I haven’t needed since moving in with Ian. Once I get a place in London I’ll get that.
In some ways, it’s kind of nice to be moving away from Ian for a bit. When I’m around him I just eat so much. Now I know how Jeri must’ve felt right before I moved in with Ian! I can’t wait to be in London so I can start dropping a few pounds.
Of course, until then, Ian are enjoying our time together how we know best… eating. Last night I made a huge fried rice dish. We also had chips and sundaes. HUGE sundaes. I love those. I’m going to miss eating with Ian, but I’m not going to miss the pounds.
Wednesday, October 02, 2002
Oh goodie!
I’m becoming obsessed with my weight I think.
And let me tell you something, that’s not a good thing when you’re 447 pounds! I guess without Ian around I just feel a little self conscious.
Jeri’s down another couple of pounds. If memory serves she actually got down to 175 before her little ‘set back’, so she’s not quite there yet.
I wonder what Amy will think about having a large roommate? Lol, in my mind I still picture her as being the same girl I hung out with in high school. She’s not. She’s actually probably bigger than Jeri is!
Oh well, wait and see, right?
I’m becoming obsessed with my weight I think.
And let me tell you something, that’s not a good thing when you’re 447 pounds! I guess without Ian around I just feel a little self conscious.
Jeri’s down another couple of pounds. If memory serves she actually got down to 175 before her little ‘set back’, so she’s not quite there yet.
I wonder what Amy will think about having a large roommate? Lol, in my mind I still picture her as being the same girl I hung out with in high school. She’s not. She’s actually probably bigger than Jeri is!
Oh well, wait and see, right?
Tuesday, October 01, 2002
Damn Burger King!
Damn him and his Value Menu!
I didn’t know what to do last night. I had some pasta for dinner. Nothing fancy, just a canned sauce with some ground beef over spaghetti. I’m not used to cooking for one, so there were leftovers for the first time since… well… I don’t know.
Later I was watching TV (is it just me, or all the ‘new’ shows identical to all the ‘old’ shows? I mean they didn’t even bother coming up with a clever title for CSI: Miami.), and of course being inundated by commercials for, yeah, you guessed it the new ‘BK Value Menu’.
So I headed out to check it out, I got a potato, bacon cheeseburger, fries, chocolate shake and 4 chicken tenders. I guess someone needs to account for Ian’s calories when he’s not around eh?
On top of that I had some candy corns to snack on during the evening. I love those, don’t have ‘em often, but I like to get a big bag from the bulk bins every once in a while.
So, I guess I missed Ian last night.
I’m still excited about moving to London, even if there’s going to be more of me to move, lol.
Damn him and his Value Menu!
I didn’t know what to do last night. I had some pasta for dinner. Nothing fancy, just a canned sauce with some ground beef over spaghetti. I’m not used to cooking for one, so there were leftovers for the first time since… well… I don’t know.
Later I was watching TV (is it just me, or all the ‘new’ shows identical to all the ‘old’ shows? I mean they didn’t even bother coming up with a clever title for CSI: Miami.), and of course being inundated by commercials for, yeah, you guessed it the new ‘BK Value Menu’.
So I headed out to check it out, I got a potato, bacon cheeseburger, fries, chocolate shake and 4 chicken tenders. I guess someone needs to account for Ian’s calories when he’s not around eh?
On top of that I had some candy corns to snack on during the evening. I love those, don’t have ‘em often, but I like to get a big bag from the bulk bins every once in a while.
So, I guess I missed Ian last night.
I’m still excited about moving to London, even if there’s going to be more of me to move, lol.
