MsCezanne's Odyssey

I know my blog has been a little quiet lately.

There have been a few aspects to my life that have been less than fun lately, and every time I started a diary entry, it was just dripping with anger and despair. I don't want that! Certainly not at this time of the year. Further, my creative energies have been focused on another project. I don't know if anything will come of it, but I have been enjoying it, and, as I said, it's been using up my creative energies, leaving the bitterness for my diary.

But I'm better now. Still spending the creative energies elsewhere, but I've got a little to spare for Wednesday Weigh In.

459 pounds this morning, I'm so very close to 460 pounds and being officially fatter than ever! It's really exciting, the changes in my body are nothing like before, or at least nothing like I remember. I don't feel as awkward as before. Ian says that my body is a little more used to it now, and with my weight more in my belly, I'm actually better balanced than I was before. Clothing seems to be a little nicer this time around than it was last time. I still have trouble keeping on my feet for too long, but that's okay, I just avoid being on my feet more than I have to be. Ian's been VERY good about running the errands, keeping up with the chores, and keeping me well fed.

The changes have seemed much more drastic since I've been back to work. I don't eat as much during the day, so I try to make up for that in the evening. It's tough to eat as much as I'd like to, but I'm still happy with the progress I've made. I've really gotten used to the idea of having a big belly. I'd still like a larger bum and hips, but the big belly does feel really nice when I rub it. You can't just sit there rubbing your hips and bum, but you can just sit and rub your belly! I've also decided that a fat belly is nicer than a preggo one. Don't get me wrong, a preggo belly was a lot of fun, but there's so much crammed in there, it's not as soft and jiggly as a fat belly can be. My belly is bigger now than when I was preggo, and sometimes I actually feel like I'm preggo. Not a lot though, there was so much else to go along with being preggo than just the belly, but there are times when I'm doing something where I get this 'woah, it's like being preggo' feeling, and I do enjoy those.

Amy Update

Amy's settling into a 9-5 type job out west, so she's got a lot more time to devote to eating. She's got a staff she trusts, and Thomas is doing a lot of the 'hard work', so the stress is gone. Thomas is busy in the evenings though, so she'll do a lot of pizza and movie nights. She says she's back on the gaining path. Her New Year's resolution is to hit 500 pounds in '07. She'll be getting a scale and weigh in on January 1st for the first time since moving out west. She figures on being 470 or so by then.

Ian Update

Ian is a weight loss machine. He dropped another 4 pounds this week. There's only 50 pounds between us now. Even though he's still the fat one, I'm starting to feel gigantic next to him. I love how that feels. There's still part of me that wishes he was still 600 pounds, but for the most part, I'm very appreciative of the energy he has now, of the time alone I get while he's at the gym, and I just love seeing the changes in him. He's still really fat, but there's a power behind it. You can tell there's muscles under that fat just bursting to get out.

Sherry Update

Sherry's back at work too, though she's enjoying it a little more than I am. She's bracing for the New Year's rush where she'll have a million clients with a million bad habits. She loves the challenge, and everything from here to then is just warming up.

She hasn't been helping Ian with his work outs very much, she doesn't have much time for that, but she's pretty impressed at how well he's been sticking to it on his own. She has been working out more on her own though, and she's getting to be a hard body!