Monday, March 20, 2006
Sketch of a Post
387 pounds…
It’s crazy, but I’m still not sure what to make of that. 280 is my goal weight. I know that. But this just feels so good! I’m soft, I’m jiggly, I eat whatever the hell I want. I know I’m going to have to get down to 280 sooner or later, but just don’t have the heart to make it sooner.
With that in mind, I really should set a goal, maybe 400 pounds, maybe a little bit more. But again, my heart’s just not in that place. Hopefully I’ll figure things out before life figures them out for me. But maybe not.
Shelley is getting kind of excited about helping Ian get back into shape. She’s a little stir crazy at home, and he’s going to be her project for the next while. She’s been doing some research, talking with some of her friends about him. She even came over for Saturday’s hockey game (she’s a Maple Leafs fan too) to see Ian in action, since fighting bad habits is the key to success when losing weight. She got to see just how much he (and Amy) can eat when they really let go. Normally they hold themselves back when she’s around, but not on Saturday!
Ian’s up to 598 pounds again, so 600 pounds is inching closer. I love how he handles it, but I’m getting curious to see how he’s like when he’s losing weight. It’ll be a HUGE change in our life, and it’s going to be fun seeing what changes, what surprises come up.
It’s crazy, but I’m still not sure what to make of that. 280 is my goal weight. I know that. But this just feels so good! I’m soft, I’m jiggly, I eat whatever the hell I want. I know I’m going to have to get down to 280 sooner or later, but just don’t have the heart to make it sooner.
With that in mind, I really should set a goal, maybe 400 pounds, maybe a little bit more. But again, my heart’s just not in that place. Hopefully I’ll figure things out before life figures them out for me. But maybe not.
Shelley is getting kind of excited about helping Ian get back into shape. She’s a little stir crazy at home, and he’s going to be her project for the next while. She’s been doing some research, talking with some of her friends about him. She even came over for Saturday’s hockey game (she’s a Maple Leafs fan too) to see Ian in action, since fighting bad habits is the key to success when losing weight. She got to see just how much he (and Amy) can eat when they really let go. Normally they hold themselves back when she’s around, but not on Saturday!
Ian’s up to 598 pounds again, so 600 pounds is inching closer. I love how he handles it, but I’m getting curious to see how he’s like when he’s losing weight. It’ll be a HUGE change in our life, and it’s going to be fun seeing what changes, what surprises come up.
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Catching Up
I certainly never meant to go a month without updating my diary. I guess it’s just been the furthest thing from my mind as of late. Life has been pretty good. Paul is growing well. I am growing well. Ian is not.
Perhaps Ian’s lack of progress has kept me from writing. I’ve been very excited about trying to decide on life after Ian hits 600 pounds, so without that chance happening, there’s not much to really write about. I wonder if by focusing on what happens next, I’ve been letting him down in actually getting there. He says that I’m doing fine, he’s certainly eating as much as ever, from what I can tell.
I know I’ve been eating as much as ever, where Ian’s hovering just below 600 pounds, I’m now over 385 pounds. It’s still a far cry from Ian, Amy, or even my own highest weight, but I’m starting to get that ‘gigantic’ feeling I had when I was pregnant, and the last time I was this big. I’m enjoying it for now, so we’ll see how far I can push it before I need to get back to 280 pounds.
My plans for Ian post-600 have been pretty simple. I’ve been talking with Sherry about what would probably work the best. She’s not an expert, but she is informed, and would really like to help Ian lose weight through diet and exercise. She’s going to do some reading and talking with some people she knows to determine some routines and goals to try. She’s offered to help me out too. I’m not quite sure I want someone’s help losing weight, but it’s nice to know that the offer is there.
Amy’s weight has been going up up up too. She’s well past 450, probably around 460 by now. I don’t get to see her as much these days, she’s been busy with Thomas’s friends, and doing taxes.
She offered to do ours, and now that she’s so busy, I almost feel guilty about it (almost). Our taxes aren’t all that complicated, and Ian has said he could do them on the computer, but Amy has said that she promised to do them, so she will. Her advice has been great, saving in RSPs, RESP for Paul and managing my unemployment and Ian’s declarations to maximise everything, so she really does understand it better than me or Ian.
I don’t know how much longer she can gain for. Even though she’s smaller than Ian by total mass, they appear to be about the same size, and she doesn’t handle her weight as well as Ian does, and Ian is far from graceful! Actually, Ian does become a little more graceful the longer his weight doesn’t change. He’s not exactly cat-like these days, but he’s not quite a bull in a china shop any more either.
Perhaps Ian’s lack of progress has kept me from writing. I’ve been very excited about trying to decide on life after Ian hits 600 pounds, so without that chance happening, there’s not much to really write about. I wonder if by focusing on what happens next, I’ve been letting him down in actually getting there. He says that I’m doing fine, he’s certainly eating as much as ever, from what I can tell.
I know I’ve been eating as much as ever, where Ian’s hovering just below 600 pounds, I’m now over 385 pounds. It’s still a far cry from Ian, Amy, or even my own highest weight, but I’m starting to get that ‘gigantic’ feeling I had when I was pregnant, and the last time I was this big. I’m enjoying it for now, so we’ll see how far I can push it before I need to get back to 280 pounds.
My plans for Ian post-600 have been pretty simple. I’ve been talking with Sherry about what would probably work the best. She’s not an expert, but she is informed, and would really like to help Ian lose weight through diet and exercise. She’s going to do some reading and talking with some people she knows to determine some routines and goals to try. She’s offered to help me out too. I’m not quite sure I want someone’s help losing weight, but it’s nice to know that the offer is there.
Amy’s weight has been going up up up too. She’s well past 450, probably around 460 by now. I don’t get to see her as much these days, she’s been busy with Thomas’s friends, and doing taxes.
She offered to do ours, and now that she’s so busy, I almost feel guilty about it (almost). Our taxes aren’t all that complicated, and Ian has said he could do them on the computer, but Amy has said that she promised to do them, so she will. Her advice has been great, saving in RSPs, RESP for Paul and managing my unemployment and Ian’s declarations to maximise everything, so she really does understand it better than me or Ian.
I don’t know how much longer she can gain for. Even though she’s smaller than Ian by total mass, they appear to be about the same size, and she doesn’t handle her weight as well as Ian does, and Ian is far from graceful! Actually, Ian does become a little more graceful the longer his weight doesn’t change. He’s not exactly cat-like these days, but he’s not quite a bull in a china shop any more either.
