MsCezanne's Odyssey

I didn't have a time to make a turkey this year, so we had ham instead. Still did up plenty of veggies and potatoes though! Sherry actually baked an apple pie that turned out very nice. It's the first time I had a Thanksgiving with her when she was preggo, so it was nice to over indulge with my personal trainer...

Labels: Char, diary, thanksgiving

I don't normally write much about other people, but I can't help it: my sister is pregnant, and two of my friends are pregnant! That's a lot of pregnancies to find out about all in one day!

This'll be the third for my sister, and the second for each of my friends.

I've got to say that I'm excited for all of them, and a little bummed that I'm still a year away from getting preggo myself. Gaining 8 pounds over the last month has been fun, but I'm not so fond of them at this moment, I could've lost 8 pounds instead, and be 16 pounds closer!

I'll just have to work on getting back to the gym.

Labels: Char, diary

Between Thanksgiving, Hallowe'en, Paul being sick, me being sick and Sherry being sick, I've managed to come up with a long list of excuses to gain some weight. I just haven't gotten back into my groove. I'm not watching what I eat, I'm not getting to the pool or doing my exercises.

I can feel it, too. It's been a long time since I really felt 'fat', but I'm feeling it now. I'm still of two minds about it too. I LOVE feeling fat! To feel fat after all this time, it's intoxicating, I'm revelling in it. At the same time, it's taking me further from my goal, and I'm feeling guilty about losing my self control for an extended period of time.

I know that sooner or later I'll get things back under control, just hope it doesn't take too long!

Until then, I'm just enjoying the new familiar feelings, and trying to let them become a habit.

Labels: Char, diary, weight gain