MsCezanne's Odyssey

It's been busy!

I know I always say that, but who knew life could be so busy!

Anyway, without any effort to post the long story, Amy was back in Ontario for two weeks, and I'd forgotten just how big she is!

I will try to write more later.

And to those who care: I'm currently 367 pounds (I was 363 before she visited...)

Labels: Amy, Char, diary, weigh in, weight gain, weight loss

I didn't think it had been this long since I posted!

I'm finally getting back into my old routine, which means regular swims, and regular appoinments with the weights. I vaguely recall bragging how much energy I had, and how strong I was getting. Not so much now! I feel kind of like a weakling, considering how well I was doing until the Thanksgiving Derailment!

I don't regret taking a break though. Well, not now, maybe near the end of my workouts... but that's how you know they're working. I had a great fall, I loved putting on some weight, enjoying some good food, and having a happy holidays. It's not just something you say at the check out!

The holidays themselves were crazy busy, of course. Back home to see family and friends. Nothing like my listening to my sister complain her maternity jeans are too tight while we're having our third serving of apple pie ;-)

Amy came for a visit. I wish I could see her more often, but it was still nice to have a chance to cook for her again! I've missed that a lot! For someone on a diet she certainly put away food like the old days.

Labels: Amy, Char, diary

Happy Holidays, etc.

I'm off to Toronto for a few days.

I'll be seeing family and friends (including Amy, who's flown home from Calgary for 2 weeks!)

Labels: Amy, Char, diary

Well, I've broken 400 pounds again. I think this is my 4th time now, 2nd time going down.

400 is one of those psychological barriers. I feel thinner. I see a thinner person in the mirror. My energy levels haven't changed much since the summer though. I'm in good shape, despite my weight. I move around great, and seem to always be ready to go, even if there's nothing to do!

In other news, I'm not finding the time to write like I'd like to. I'm still working on my drawn out weight gain story that doesn't have any weight gain to start. I want enough of it done that there IS weight gain before I post it! Also, someone has finally made the effort to edit my stories! They're being posted in the Dimensions Library. I'm kind of excited about it. Reading my stories is a lot of fun!

In further news, my friend, Amy, has resumed posting in her diary. I know I haven't updated much about her lately, mostly because she wasn't so keen on being updated. Now you can learn whatever you want about her.

Labels: Amy, Char, diary, weigh in

I haven't written much in terms of fiction or personal biography. Why? I guess I've been busy. I haven't been busy with anything I felt the need to write about, because while I've enjoyed it, I don't know that I'd want to read about it.

For both Ian and I, life is routine. I never wanted a routine life, but having one is pretty good, I've got to admit. I don't like having an office job, but do like having a job I can do and take pride in, I like having co-workers I get along with.

Ian's job is more exciting than mine. He's with a small company that is both shrinking and growing. They've got less people doing more work. Ian's getting a bigger piece of the pie, and the pie is getting bigger. It keeps him really busy, but he enjoys the challenges, and makes time at home that much more special.

Having our personal trainer living two floors away means that our exercise routines are are always on pace. I've been swimming, walking in the park and working out with free weights. I'm in better shape than I've been in a decade, despite still being quite fat. I love how it feels, I love how it looks.

Ian gets in his workouts when he can. He doesn't get in as much as I do, but he's cute anyways.

I know people still ask about Amy, and I haven't written much about her either. She's had some health scares, and she's now actively losing weight. She's in touch with Sherry, and they're working on a programme like the one she worked on with me and Ian. It'll be tougher for Amy, she doesn't have Sherry there to kick her ass! Thomas probably will though, so hopefully Amy'll be doing fine in a few months' time.

Weigh ins:
Char: 415 pounds
Ian: 319
Amy: Approx 535

Labels: Amy, Char, diary, Ian, weigh in, weight loss

There's a LOT of snow today! Really killed traffic flow, but everyone got where they needed to go, safe and sound.

House hunting has been going well. It's tough to say exactly what I want, but the more I see, the better idea of what we're going to get is emerging. Originally we'd planned to buy an existing house, but now we're leaning towards building one. It doesn't really cost more, and it's easier to get exactly what you want, and can actually cost less since there's no redecoration, no (expensive) surprises, and the house is under warrantee! The stuff you learn when doing something new eh?

Though it's not really a 'new year' any more, I still think of it that way. The new year has been going well for my new lifestyle. I swim when I can. Sherry has given me some aerobic and light weight exercises I can do on my own too. Being active feels great, and I sort of wish I'd never given it up. I do find myself missing my weight though. I've lost about 40 pounds total, and just don't jiggle like I used to. It's weird feeling my clothes getting looser, rather than tighter, but if that's what I've got to do, that's what I've got to do.

My weight is 480 pounds.

Ian's been keeping busy too. He does a lot more weightlifting now, as well as the treadmill and swimming. He's still busy with work, but again Sherry has given him some exercises he can do on his own. He's down to 347 pounds, and is looking really great now. As much as miss my big soft Ian, I've got to admit I am enamoured with his soft but powerful physique.

I haven't heard much from Amy lately, she's busy with taxes and RSPs and all that accountant stuff. She tells me her weight has been up and down, but finally more up than down. She's bigger than ever now at 543 pounds.

Labels: Amy, Char, diary, Ian, weigh in

I broke 500 again. This would be my third time, twice going over, once dropping under. Won't be long before I break 500 a fourth time. I hope.

Obviously, at 503 pounds I've been enjoying my holidays, and haven't been doing a lot of genuine exercise. I'm back home now, it'll be easier to get back on track with eating normally and getting in the pool. It will be a bit tougher without Sherry, it's her busy time as everyone tries to get their New Year's resolutions underway.

Ian's been bad too, he's up to 375 pounds. He's not too concerned about it. He's becoming very comfortable with his body lately, and I'm happy about that. He's still got his commanding size, but now he's got a fitness and agility that he likes, and really belies his size.

Surprisingly, Amy is only 542 pounds. That's what she weighed a few weeks ago, which means she didn't gain at all while visiting. I was SURE she was good for 2 pounds just visiting with us. She did spend a few days at her parents', she doesn't eat as much there, and plenty of time at the airport, as well as in the car, so maybe she didn't get to eat nearly as much as normal.

We didn't do anything fancy for my birthday, just a quiet dinner with a few friends. I just don't have the energy for anything fancy any more! It's very nice though, just a quiet night. Guess I'm getting old.

Labels: Amy, Char, diary, Ian, weigh in

We're back home, I'm back at work, and it's been a fun holidays. Paul is old enough to appreciate how exciting everything is. It makes things very interesting as parents, but when all is said and done, the ups far exceed the downs, and I wouldn't have it any other way.

Seeing friends and family is always the highlight of the holidays, especially when you have left town and just don't get to see everyone as much as you'd like. What struck me is it seemed like everyone got together to agree on 'My God, you've lost so much weight Ian!' as their official greeting. I don't really mind that they'd say it, it's obvious he's lost a tonne of weight. It just struck me that it seemed so consistent from person to person.

I also think that our families were surprised by how little the two of us ate. We ate more than our fair share, of course, but not much more than anyone else really. I dare say that Ian's brother even out ate Ian! I still got to cook a couple of Christmas dinners, and there's still a lot of fun watching everyone enjoying their meal.

We took time to visit with Jeri, James and Amanda. I miss them a lot, as always. And as always I forget just how old Amanda is. She's in grade 2, she reads, she writes, she knows all kinds of things. She's such a bright girl, and so big!

Speaking of big, Jeri's gotten to be pretty big again. I think she's about as big as she was before, but I didn't take the time to ask. James has gotten pretty big too, at least big for James.

Speaking of pretty big, I had the chance to spend time with Amy and Thomas not once, but twice. The first time, in Toronto, we went out with a few old friends together. It's the first time I've seen her since the summer, and I was surprised to see how big she's gotten.

Last time we were together, despite being a few pounds apart in weight, we seemed to be about the same size over all. Not now. I know it's all about perception, but I just felt dwarfed by her presence. Part of it is just my mental picture of her, being my size. She's 40+ pounds bigger than me now, which is significant even at our size. So seeing her, it's like right away she's 40 pounds bigger than I was thinking. She's so big everywhere, but especially across her hips.

Over the weekend she and Thomas came to visit us in London. Thomas has actually become a little tubby himself. Very few people would consider him 'fat', but if you know him well, you can really see the changes in him. He's just rounder, softer than normal.

Saturday I had my chance to cook for Amy, and to eat with her. We spent the whole day together, and I was shocked by how much she ate. Ian told me that I used to eat that much, but surely I'd remember? Ian and I (and Thomas for that matter) ate plenty, but we weren't even close to keeping up with Amy. We just did snack food/fast food, except for dinner I just made up a vat of my chicken fetticini al fredo. There were no leftovers for that!

Labels: Amy, Char, diary, Ian

It's time for another Wednesday Weigh In!

Charlotte (that's me): 501 Pounds

I've been working pretty good. I'm still mostly working the pool doing aquafit stuff, but a couple times a week now I'm doing weights with Sherry. Nothing impressive, I've probably eaten lunches bigger than the weights I'm using, but I can feel it. She's got me dialed in where it hurts, but not so much that I hate it. Just kind of annoyed by it, but I can feel the results. I've got more energy than I've had in years. 501 seems like a big number, but it doesn't FEEL big. If I had to say, I'd say I feel... oh, maybe 380.

Ian (that's the cute guy I sleep with): 375 pounds.

He's on a crazy schedule for work, always there to keep an eye on Paul when I'm working out, doing his fair share of the errands and chores AND still finding the time to get to the gym by himself. Sherry still keeps tabs on him, of course, but she's not there to motivate him. I think he's just enjoying his new, slender body. I know it seems crazy to call 375 slender, but that's the word that comes to mind when I see him now. He's still fat, of course, but I guess I've just got a slightly warped view.

He kind of reminds me of Mister Incredible.

Amy (a friend that people seem to enjoy hearing about): 542 pounds.

There were people who were sure I was going to catch her. Now there's 40+ pounds between us. She says she's not adapting to her weight gain as easily as before. She absolutely loves it though, because the fact that she's always thinking about her fat just reminds her how fat she's become.

Also, she's finalised her plans for Christmas, and I get to feed her again for a day.

It's the best gift I could get.

Besides diamonds.

Labels: Amy, Char, diary, Ian, weigh in, weight gain, weight loss

It's time for my Wednesday Weigh-In. Now that Sherry has me into a routine of moving every day, I'm really starting to feel it. At 514 I'm not tiny or anything, but I can feel the difference now. I'm getting past the point of feeling like it's all too much, and starting to feel like it's just another part of the day.

I remember Ian going through this, but I have several advantages over him. First, I was more active this summer than he was when he started working with Sherry. Second, Sherry has learned a lot working with Ian, so it's been easier to get effective exercise for me. Third, I've basically done this once, so I've got a better idea of what it takes than he had at first.

Ian's still losing weight though, he's down to 387 pounds this week. He's really starting to firm up. He's still fat, but the fat seems to cling to him, rather than hang from him. Maybe it's just my perception. He's moving better too.

Amy's reported in. Hockey season has helped her get her gaining weight again, she's up 536 pounds now. She says she can really feel the weight piling on again, and she loves every jiggle of it. She also says that even though she's not gaining very quickly, her body is adjusting. One of her clients is a tailor for her, and says that her measurements have changed more over the last six months than she'd have thought.

As for life, Sherry and I took the kids trick-or-treating around the building. It was a lot of fun, a chance to get to know the neighbours a little bit better, and see just how many kids there are in the building!

I must add that Sherry wore a costume, though I did not. I just haven't had the time to make anything, and have no idea where I'd buy something that fits, much less suits my taste.

Labels: Amy, Char, diary, Hallowe'en, Ian, weigh in

Starting to run a little dry on the story front. Can't quite get the other half of Matt and Annie's cliff hanger solved. I hate when people set something up and then don't pay it off. Now I hate myself for setting it up and not getting the pay off, lol. Karen and Michael is sort of meandering. Something's going to have to happen sooner or later. The Stuck Series has been a lot of fun, I'll probably work on that some more if I can't come up with anything else. I was waiting for some response to byline before continuing that, so I think there will be more of that coming up.

The other story that is really sticking is the Megan/Geraldine story. I was going to write the next installment as the first episode of the TV show, then realised I have no clue how to do that. If anyone has any suggestions, I'd love to hear.

So, with my creative writing on hold, might as well go back to reality. It's my favourite time of year again, the leaves are changing and we're awash in colours. The weather has been odd, it was stinky hot yesterday, London set a record by a few degrees. Now it's rainy, which I don't really like, who wants to see piles of mucky leaves?

As I've been wrestling with the decision of the future, my stomach has been making its vote heard, I'm now 519 pounds. Ian's more than happy to keep me growing, and when someone is bringing you food, and you're used to just eating, it really is tough to stop without making an effort. I don't know how much longer this can go on, though I do know it's going to go on a little bit longer.

Ian's weight is now 395 pounds. He's just a machine, he is very dedicated to exercising and eating right. He says working out is the best way to fend off stress from work, so maybe once his work settles down he'll get fat again. Tough to say. I'm enjoying the ever changing Ian. Having him shrink helps me feel even bigger, which is always fun.Right now he's been talking about getting to 350 and re-evaluating his goals/routine. He's also propose that I keep gaining until then, so we can work out our goals together. That'll probably take us until next year so I don't think I'll wait that long, but I don't really have another plan in place either.

Finally, Amy. She's holding in at 531 pounds. Thomas is truly satisfied with her size, so while she's still trying to gain, she's doing it without his help. Not that he's disregarding her by any means, just not providing all the food she wants. She's doing her best to keep gaining, but she is finding it tough to find the time to really go for it.

Labels: Amy, Char, diary, Ian, weigh in